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Monday, 3 August 2009

Jordan has flown to Spain with Alex Reid but she still has deep regrets about the end of her marriage to Peter Andre

Its a shame because it was a fairytale and he was the love of my life,' she tells Now in an exclusive interview. 'The kids dont really understand whats going on.'

The mum of three is putting on a brave face but friends and family are becoming increasingly concerned about her fragile state of mind.

Last week Jordan went on ITV1s Loose Women and declared that shed never been happier, but privately her pain is causing great worry for those closest to her including mum Amy and best friend Michelle Heaton.

Jordan, 31, broke down when her mum tried to tell her that her behaviour had become unacceptable after hearing about her antics at Michelles 30th birthday party.

Friends say that Jordan was so drunk, she was rambling incoherently and was falling on the floor muttering to herself. Amy, concerned that her daughters life is turning into a car crash, tried to warn her to no avail.

A source says: She flew into a rage like a woman possessed, saying: Im f***ing Jordan I can do what I want. No one can tell me what to do. The kids were horrified to see their mummy so upset. She then went upstairs and no one saw her for hours.

Now can reveal that over the last year friends and family have feared for the ex-glamour models welfare.

When she was in Florida last August, she locked herself in her room one day and wouldnt come out to anyone, not even Pete or her management,' says our source. 'No one knew what was wrong she said she just couldnt cope with all the people round her.'

Jordans had to deal with more than most in the last decade. After splitting from Another Level singer Dane Bowers in 2000, she took an overdose of prescription drugs, which left her hospitalised.

Ive been really hurt in the past, she told us last week. Especially when I split up with Dane. It took me two years to get over him. I had the overdose and I always said I would never let a guy do that to me again.

While she was struggling with postnatal depression after giving birth to Junior in 2005, she also had suicidal thoughts that became so strong that she binged on drugs and contemplated driving into a wall. She later checked into The Priory.