I'm 45 and I have been married for 15 years. I have also been prostituting, but in the last two years I have decided to stop and take a serious look at my life. However, due to serious financial problems I had to go out a few times. In March of this year I started experiencing a vaginal itching. I went to the clinic and was treated for yeast infection but as soon as the medication finished the symptoms reappeared.

The doctor at the clinic had a long talk with me and then he decided to test my *lo** for HIV. I was tested HIV positive, I was surprised, but I also know that I'm to be blamed because I did not think I was firm enough about condom use with my clients. I'm glad however, that I had always protected my husband by using condoms consistently with him. He knows about my life styles but agreed because of our financial problems. I had just to find a way to pay the bills. What am I to expect? At times I feel angry, helpless and embarra**ed.

Prostituting Wife

Dear Prostituting Wife:

First of all I'm sorry to hear that you are infecting with HIV the virus that causes AIDS. After hearing that you tested positive for HIV, you may experience a wide range of emotional reactions. You may experience shock, anger, anxiety, fear, helplessness, guilt, uncertainty, embarra**ment, or a sense of isolation. All these feelings are normal.

It is important that you find emotional support. Talk about your test result with someone you trust. There are support groups for people who have tested HIV positive. It is also important that you practice safer sex not just with you husband, but also with your clients. This is important to your physical and mental health.